I am feeling the “wampus” today. This has been a roller coaster of a week. Up and down, and side to side. It is hard to find footing today. Even yoga this morning was mostly over taken by my spinning mind. I am sitting here with the most delicious tea I got in Denver a few weeks ago and I really just want to curl up and take a nap, but I am not tired.
What is it?….
…… Is it winter? Is it the piles of laundry that never end? Is it the homeless person I pass every morning on my way to take Charlie to school? Is it my adolescent son who can’t seem to walk from one end of the room to the other only to forget what he set off to do only 15 seconds before? Is it that time is going too fast and too slowly all at once? Is it that time for a converstation with my husband is so rare? Is it the guilt of painting while so many other things “should” be taken care of? Is it that I do too much for my boys or not perhaps not enough? Is it the thought of infinity that I find overwhelming? Is it the list of phone calls I have to make? Is it that the music I am listening to is so beautiful? Is it the unfinished house projects haunting me? Is it the horrible dream I had last night?
Welcome to my crazy mind. Or perhaps, run fast and far…. really far!!! I am off to eat chocolate… a lot of it!!