One of my biggest fears is blindness. It is something I can’t begin to comprehend. I don’t trust anyone near my eyes. Not Chris, not my sisters… no one. Going to the eye doctor is a circus show in itself. And ironically enough, one of my not-so-secret dreams is to be a seeing eye dog trainer. I have a whole file that I have been collecting for 18 years. I have a great story that started all of that, but for another day. Anyway, since I have really begun to put myself, my art and my passions out into the world, I have found myself on a steep learning curve which includes learning a lot about myself. I been forced to admit out loud things about myself that aren’t always comfortable. I am beginning to see my blind spots… or at least a few of them. And, damn they are hard to keep in focus and bring front and center. Talk about trust! Can I trust myself to open my eyes and see?
Today I began painting with no intention or plan. More like a warm up board. My head was swirling and I couldn’t really make sense of anything. Just keep painting..
I am getting ready to start the Evolve program with AIR with the hope and determination of getting all of this swirling focused. I have been working on mission statements, goals, introductions etc. I am having to take a good look at where I have been, where I am, and where I want to go and be in 5 years.This is not easy and not something I have ever really done before. I have managed to focus on keeping my hands dirty and avoiding the world (in a career sense) for a long time. Just keep painting….
I wonder what the boys are doing right now… just keep painting.
I have just read the book Quiet by Susan Cain and found a good part of myself explained. Just keep painting…
I love this song! Just keep painting…..
I have met some incredible people in Fort Collins. I am feeling comfortable here. Just keep painting….
Robin’s blog was hilarious and soooo true. … just keep painting.
I miss my Mom. Just keep painting….
Chris called. I asked for support. He said yes. Just keep painting….
I love red. Just keep painting…
Perhaps by keeping my heart open I will be able to open my eyes and see…. not just yet, but perhaps with some focus…eventually.
|Blind Spots, self portrait. Oil on Wood. 2013|
2 Replies to “Blind spots”
great work! just keep painting! perfect mantra… so proud of you!!
Wow. You are so incredibly talented!!
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